10 years of God's mercy and grace

The month of April has become a difficult one for our family over the years. We experienced the homegoing of our infant son Curtis on April 4th 2007. And by that next April we were rejoicing over the birth of Joshua in 2008. He was our rainbow baby, the gift of life after the storm of loss.

 In April of 2015 we had gone for the 10 week appointment to hear the heartbeat but learned that the baby had died possibly at 6.5 weeks of pregnancy.

 Then in August of 2016 we learned that we were due April 1st of 2017. Things were going well and after an ultrasound my due date was changed to April 9th. At a routine check up at almost 15 weeks we failed to hear the heartbeat and looking at that beautiful baby on ultrasound there was indeed no heartbeat.

Through all of the joys and sorrows of these 10 years we know that our Heavenly Father has been with us and carried us along the way. We placed the blue flowers today to honor baby Curtis and the yellow to honor the babies we did not get to hold but are in the loving arms of Jesus in heaven.
Looking to that glad reunion day!

Remembering you... 7th birthday in Heaven

This year when I was looking for silk flowers to take to Curtis graveside I found a little ceramic angel. I thought that it would be a perfect opportunity to have the kids feel apart of honoring his life. They each painted a portion of the angel and it was very sweet.

As they worked together they started to talk about Curtis and ask questions. JJ asked me if I was very sad when we lost him. I told him we were and the truth is the grief is still very real and painful especially at this time of year around his birthday. 

I remembered this song "The Warrior is a Child" http://youtu.be/K5o2YY5BRUg and how fitting it is to how I feel as I remember him and how blessed I am to be able to turn to my Heavenly Father. God was there for Joey and I from the first time we found out we would lose Curtis, to the moment he was born, and even to this day. Has the journey of life wounded your heart? Run to Jesus and rest in His care.

Curtis 6th Birthday in Heaven

  Each year we visit his graveside and remember what our Heavenly Father brought us through. Today, was unseasonably cold and rainy and well, just plan dreary. I looked out over this area of the Memorial Gardens which is where babies are laid to rest and I thought of all the moms and dads and families who had been through the dreariness of grief and loss. I wondered if they knew that God could give them joy and hope that their baby is in Heaven and that according to His Holy Word the Bible they too can find eternal life in glory with them. Do you know? John 3: 16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

Because of Calvary!

It's Good Friday and on this day we reflect on the fact that Jesus Christ died on a cross to pay our sin debt with his perfect blood. But three days later he defeated death and rose from the grave.

If you recognize today that you like all of us are slaves to evil desires that war in our lives and nothing we do can free us from it then you can accept the cure that we celebrate at Easter. If you accept him as Savior and Lord then you can find hope for today and when your life has passed, you will have the promise of eternal life in Heaven when you die.

"Romans 8:5 For they that are after the flesh do mind the things of the flesh; but they that are after the Spirit the things of the Spirit.

6 For to be carnally minded is death; but to be spiritually minded is life and peace.

7 Because the carnal mind is enmity against God: for it is not subject to the law of God, neither indeed can be.

8 So then they that are in the flesh cannot please God.

9 But ye are not in the flesh, but in the Spirit, if so be that the Spirit of God dwell in you. Now if any man have not the Spirit of Christ, he is none of his.

10 ¶ And if Christ be in you, the body is dead because of sin; but the Spirit is life because of righteousness.

11 But if the Spirit of him that raised up Jesus from the dead dwell in you, he that raised up Christ from the dead shall also quicken your mortal bodies by his Spirit that dwelleth in you.

12 Therefore, brethren, we are debtors, not to the flesh, to live after the flesh.

13 For if ye live after the flesh, ye shall die: but if ye through the Spirit do mortify the deeds of the body, ye shall live."

Have you experienced the loss of a baby? If so, you, like me can know that you will be reunited in Heaven with your child if you accept Christ's gift of forgiveness and pardon.

You see five years ago today we stood by the casket of our infant son Curtis as he was to be laid in the grave and we mourned our loss but we had the peace of knowing this wasn't the end but rather the beginning of eternal life in Heaven.

Happy 5th Birthday in Heaven Precious Curtis!

Approaching this 5th birthday anniversary has admittedly been hard for me. I miss Curtis just as much today as the moment he passed into Heaven.

The kids 5th birthday has always been a "big" birthday for our home and fun to celebrate...

For JJ's 5th on December 2007 we had a monkey themed birthday party and lots of friends to play with.

And Kayla's 5th birthday August 2009 we of course had a princess themed celebration with lots of royalty :)

However it brings me peace and joy to know that no birthday celebration here can match the wonder and awe of the eternal celebration Curtis is experiencing in Heaven!

And God blessed us with Joshua whose 5th birthday will be next year and for that we are so very grateful.

Happy 5th Birthday Curtis!

All our love, Mommy & Daddy & family

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A tribute to Maddie

I wanted to share this video with you about a baby girl who suddenly passed away only 2 days after she was born. You can view her story on their page... http://www.mymaddiegrace.blogspot.com/ This is a loving video from her mommy and daddy on this day which would have been her 1st birthday.

Jubilee Shalom Duggar-An Audio Letter from Michelle to Jubilee

We have enjoyed watching the Duggar Family on TV and were saddened to hear of Michelle's miscarriage of her 21st child. Her message to her baby is very tender and sweet. May you be encouraged as you listen to this sweet message...

Jubilee Shalom Duggar from WMtek Inc on Vimeo.

Recently I had the honor of meeting Mrs. Duggar and she is one of the nicest people one could ever meet! http://www.duggarfamily.com/

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On the Anniversary of Curtis 4th Birth Day

Thank you Heavenly Father for allowing us to be Curtis family! Truly your mercies are new every morning. Thinking of you precious baby boy as today you would be 4 years old. We love you very much!